Just a few more weeks until we get to hold our sweet baby Ezra! I just sit and wonder what he will look like. Will he have eyes like his sister? Will he have a button nose like his daddy? Will he have chubby cheeks? I also sit around and think "I can't WAIT for this to be over!!!" It's that time in the pregnancy where you just feel uncomfortable, sluggish, exhausted, and plain gross...all I want to do is stay in my pj's all day long! (Ok, I always want to do that anyway...but now it's worse! LOL!)
So, needless to say, my physical self feels pretty worn out and is ready to feel normal again. I have found also, that my spiritual self is feeling more like my physical self these days. Sluggish, exhausted, foggy. The passion and excitement I usually have for the Lord is more like...eh? lately. I realize this is a season in my life...which will probably not get better as I lose more sleep and begin those middle of the night feedings! So this morning, as I was desiring to have something nourish my soul- and help me to think more about the Lord (without overloading my brain) I reached for my Susannah Spurgeon devotional. (well, it's Jenn's devotional that I'm long-term borrowing, LOL!) To no surprise, the Lord used her meditations on the scriptures to wipe the sleep out of my spiritual eyes and awaken my sluggish soul from slumber. I just thought I would share a snip-et of that devotional on my blog...in hopes to encourage any of my slumbering friends out there! :o)
"I shall be anointed with fresh oil. How wonderfully do your mercy and my need meet together here! My soul's necessities make a happy pretext for the outpouring of your grace. When your love wakens me in the morning- how cheering is the thought that this anointing awaits my poor listless, sluggish, corroded soul! The renewing of the Holy Ghost, the quickening of the Spirit, the coming of the Comforter- these are the precious ingredients, which give beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, and make the face to shine with heaven's reflected glory. I shall be anointed with fresh oil. O my dear Lord, you alone know the deep and constant need I have of this anointing which teacheth all things. Sometimes, my spiritual life seems to come to a deadlock, like a delicate piece of machinery which is clogged by rust and grime. Scarce a desire heavenward moves the lagging wheels, only a feeble heart-throb, now and again, proves the motive-power to be still lingering within. My soul cleaveth unto the dust, and my whole being is deadened, till I cry, 'Quicken Thou me, O Lord!' Then in a wonderful answer to my call, there comes the whispered word of power and deliverance, 'I will put my Spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes', and the soul feels the blessed softening and life-giving working of the Holy Spirit, as she shakes herself from the dust, and utters once again the glad assurance, 'I shall be anointed with fresh oil.'
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